“me” has been redeemed in a certain very uncretinous way

I am only writing to cure myself and my stresses and the repetitive cycles of my self-doubt, I’d like to write things to entertain other people or make me some money or make me some validation or make me some positive ego image but the task of making myself feel better is really crucial and fundamental to everything in my life it is what I most need and it is a big task at times that is demanding and it deserves my attention because I really don’t want to stress so hard anymore, man. I have to be patient with myself and not expect to be a “better person” (calm, happier, “more productive”) overnight. I can’t expect to have my brain not dump crazy stress shit on me overnight. It will have to be a slow, semi-repetitive task. It is easy to hit those triggers that can kill my calm and put me right back into the bad place. But these things are good because they will make me stronger. I can react to these things, I can handle them and not be so upset.

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About vurinstitute

Horatio Somersault is the Director and Regent Chancellor of the VUR Institute, a think tank involving some as-yet-unknown and slightly spooky manipulations of time and interdimensionality. In his spare time Somersault enjoys writing poems and fables. You can read his writings, as well as those of other VUR inhabitants, at vurinstitute.wordpress.com. Though he lives a wanderer's life, his hometown is a domed biome inside the water core of the moon Europa. You can follow his experiences adapting to the customs of the early 21st century on his Twitter @VURdirector and can email him at vurinstitute at gmail dot com.
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