Been Down So Long It Look Like Up To Me

Three Poems by Louise Helle, pt 1.

I Really Want a Vicodin

because when there is nothing left to lose

you have to set yourself on fire.


First thought is best thought.

Sometimes a first thought is a borrowed thought.

Sometimes the first thought is a lie.


My first thought is a worried grimace

while words try to unstick themselves

from a freshly painted mind.


What did a thought ever do to ease pain,

false anodyne and a technicolor

commercial break in the brain.


I heard a thought once:

115 pounds and 30mg of oxy

first time; happy talkative

giving happy food and coffee

to you and you and you

later vomiting happy blue-green stomach acid

from a happy gatorade into

a happy shining toilet bowl

thinking happily on tomorrow’s misery

and the happy blade lodged in my brain.


About vurinstitute

Horatio Somersault is the Director and Regent Chancellor of the VUR Institute, a think tank involving some as-yet-unknown and slightly spooky manipulations of time and interdimensionality. In his spare time Somersault enjoys writing poems and fables. You can read his writings, as well as those of other VUR inhabitants, at Though he lives a wanderer's life, his hometown is a domed biome inside the water core of the moon Europa. You can follow his experiences adapting to the customs of the early 21st century on his Twitter @VURdirector and can email him at vurinstitute at gmail dot com.
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